boys to men lol

just hangin out, a little shy, and completely platonic.
the first time we met, i was "already hurt"... thats ironic!
i didnt know how to act, it was different that day..
i got so worked up.. i wasnt suposed to meet him anyway!
it was great at first, the long nights. and the weekend
he didnt know how much i valued the time we could spend.
doubt always stood there in the back of my mind
coz last i remember, a guy should be sweet, nice, and kind.
it felt like a job.. and i worked hard for free
at least show some greatitude. i dont recall anything he did for me..
used all my strength to tell him what i meant
but all i got was an "idk" from the texts that i sent.
it really does suck to be in my position
its like me and karma just had a head-on collision..
if he knew how much i cared, and stil ignored my embrace,
then hes really not worth it... he can easily be replaced.
yah i'll miss it
i must admit it..
but if he still dosent get it,
i might as well dead it.
wen im gone, he wont notice
its fine wit me.. il be sad... i wont show it.
i thought i could make it work out
but i should have listened to that doubt.
i wanted something real, not date a boy.
i want a man, that will actually choose his girl over his "toys"..
so when he realizes he'll ask me why?
il be too busy with some other guy....

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